Being mindfully grateful for what I have is really important and something I’m embarrassed to say I don’t do often enough. This week’s Ten On Tuesday is a great reminder.
10 Times You Felt Grateful Last Week
- When I woke up Saturday morning to all of the dishes being done and…
- …coffee made and waiting for me at my desk. ( An every weekend occurrence I’m grateful for every weekend.)
- When I got to spend time in friends’ amazing garden in Queens.
- When I got to spend time with those friends, eating and drinking.
- When Scott did all the vacuuming.
- When our Sunday evening Game of Thrones guests brought spiced wine and Ser Amory’s tarts for us all to enjoy during the season finale.
- When I ate food fresh from my garden.
- When I noticed my tomato plants are covered with flowers.
- When I put up decals on the kitchen walls and thought about how they’re my kitchen walls and I can do whatever I want to them.
- When I knit on the shawl that is my current project, which uses yarn that was a gift.
A lot of people have made offers of help or to send care packages or bring over food or all of the above. You may have noticed that I’ve been conspicuously silent in replying to most of those offers. The reason for that is that I have a really hard time saying yes to offers of help. Even when I want to, even when I need to say yes… I have a really hard time with it. It’s the same thing that stops me from picking up the phone to call anyone but my mother when I have a problem. I’m just not good at letting other people in.
But Scott keeps telling me that people wouldn’t offer if they didn’t want to do it and that it’s more selfish of me to say no than to say yes. When he explains why that is, it makes sense, but I can never explain it when he’s not here to walk me through it. Because he says it and he makes sense, I’ve found a way to say yes that eases my discomfort about it a little: I’m passing the buck to someone who’s better at this than I am.
So if you’ve made an offer to help or cook or send a care package and I’ve not replied, please know that I am deeply grateful for your offer. If you’d still like to do that, please get in touch with Scott for our address or any other information you may need. Pretty much everyone knows how to reach him, but for anyone who doesn’t you can reach him on Twitter – kyrion – on Facebook or by email at Gmail – also kyrion.
Thank you all, from the bottom of my heart.
With the way the economy is looking right now, I’m so very grateful that Scott has a job and that I have work. Work for me has been down a bit, because it’s down for my clients, but I have a couple of bread and butter clients who help get me through.
And as for Scott’s job, it appears to be stable, which is a huge relief. The firm has been making cuts here and there, but not many to staffing. They’re even still giving bonuses this year, which is great, because we expected to hear that bonuses were cancelled. The cuts have taken the form of things like no holiday parties, which saved them several million.
So I’m grateful that, even though things are tight, we’re doing alright, which is more than many others can say.
Today I’m grateful for Ravelry. I’m grateful for Ravelry every day, actually. I’ve learned so much about knitting since I joined there last year. The site and the community are such an incredible resource, and the fact that Casey and Jess offer it free to users is amazing. In just 10 months, it’s become an indispensible part of my knitting life. I’m so happy it exists!